To be honest—and maybe a little horribly negative—there isn’t a lot of peace in the violence. The world never stops spinning. The kids never stop going. The laundry never stops piling up.
What matters, though, is how you handle all of that. If you only focus on the negative, it will absolutely eat you alive.
For me, sitting down at my altar with good music blasting is usually the closest thing to peace I get—especially on nights when my husband is out fishing late and I’ve gotten my kiddo to lay down for a minute.
Lately, I’ve been wanting to learn how to anoint candles (since my candle-making escapade didn’t go very well). I’m a chaos witch, so I don’t remember a whole lot off the top of my head. I’m constantly writing, rewriting, typing, and asking questions to make sure I’m adding the right things.
A lot of it is intuition, too. If a protection spell calls for something like catnip but the smell doesn’t sit right with me or calm me, I won’t use it. My craft is about my needs meeting the universe’s needs—making a balance.
Guiding the Ship through the Storm
Another trick I’ve been working on is how to guide the storm in a specific direction.
Money is a huge thing for me. I always want more because I always need something. Right now, I’m building my Etsy store, working on this blog, helping my dad with his business, and trying to start a side hustle I haven’t even announced yet.
It’s a lot.
My son hates when I get up and move around, so when he’s glued to the TV, I glue myself to my laptop and try to work. When he’s asleep (which isn’t often or for long), I’m doing laundry, dishes, cooking, and whatever other duties have called my name for the day.
The Perfectionist Procrastinator
I have to learn the timing of things to fully focus. I’m a Virgo and have inherited this lovely trait called perfectionist procrastination. If I can’t devote myself fully to a task, I do not want to start it.
It physically makes me ill to try.
It also causes me to rush things—appointments have to be 30 minutes early, cleaning starts 15–30 minutes early, and if I only have an hour left in my workday but the task is a big one, I won’t touch it.
This is part of what’s pulled me away from spellwork, too. If I can’t devote myself fully, or if I’m missing a key ingredient, I don’t even start.
Its Okay to Have Chaos
This lack of time management, driven by pure anxiety, is one of the main contributors to my chaos. But another is falling away from the craft.
It’s becoming more crucial for me to dedicate time to it—and to myself.
But here’s the thing: It’s okay.
It’s okay to have chaos.
It’s okay to struggle.
It’s okay to fall away from the craft and come back.
It’s all about what works best for you.
I’m here to be an example, in a world full of fake social media perfection, that everything is not okay—and that’s okay. Everything isn’t perfect—and that’s okay.
What isn’t okay is letting it defeat you.
As long as you’re finding some way forward—even the tiniest step—that’s okay.
Until My Broomstick Returns
With that, I thank you all for following around on whatever the hell this blog is that I’ve created. I’ve started and not finished so many things I’m my life, so I’m hoping this being online helps me stay a bit more accountable. I appreciate you all being here. https://sheaswares.etsy.com/ is my Etsy shop if you want to watch it grow! I’m currently working on a small witchy bundle, and may have some physical products on the way here soon too! See you next time!!!
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